So it is reflection about some reasons why people chose to make their DTS and about why i decided to make my DTS. Some chose it to go travelling or get know God better or challenge themselves or something more reasons.
Today 22.09.2017 i reflect back of one of my reasons why i decided to go to my DTS in YWAM Berlin. In Berlin i knew one close friend of mine whom i wanted to get know better kind of and be more close with me by visiting his church more and seeing him more and in general i thought that i knew Berlin itself much more.I know it might seem weird reason for doing DTS but i just thought that if i will be in Berlin doing this DTS i might have more opportunities to visit him etc.
In 22.09.2011 while i was soon starting my DTS- i took one week before to be there as tourist and meditate over it-i decided to go into one 12 step group i had discovered that it is there. This group is related with sex and love addiction and as i have noticed in my life more that love part or codependency stuff i felt that it is necessary to visit it.
In that first meeting while i was listening other members shares i suddenly realized that my decision to do this DTS is totally wrong, that i should not make it because of it that i want to be close with one person.First i was not sure if it from God but then i realized that it is healthy thought.
So what i did after this? if i am honest i really do not remember exactly all my thoughts but i am sure that I was bit shocked. and of course it added later to it why i cancelled my DTS after one week.
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